Posted by Portia D.
OMG-I was so impressed with the team call hosted by Shane and Rachael Krider two Thursday ago . It’s just what I needed to hear. I’m going out on a limb here and daring to be vulnerable. I need to get these feelings out. Please bear when me if this post is a bit along-it will be worth the read. Frankly speaking, this safe harbor community of Polaris Global is the only place that give me the confidence to be vulnerable “daring greatly” in expressing my truth. The quotation~title of a book by Brene Brown~also good read. This is my story—I a 54 year old wife and mother who has ALWAY, has a heart for entrepreneurship. As a young girl (age 9 or 10) growing up in Trinidad & Tobago, I walked many long miles in the blazing heat on my way to and from school. Along this daily rough, I would pass one of the most beautiful neighborhoods in my home town. The homes in this area were high above on a hill. They were beautiful and they were grand. In my eyes they looked like mansions compared to small one bedroom house where I lived with my siblings. My mother had moved to America to make a better life for her 7 children whose father was an absently Dad. In this house I slept on a box which was my makeshift bed. I remember during those days on my daily commute to school, I would dream and fantasize bout one day owner such a grand home and living such a grand life. Even at such a young age I believed it was possible for me to live that life. To this day, I clearly remember one particular bright and sunny afternoon as I was working home form school, I was singing and skipping along with a song in my heart ~ Killing Me Softly, by Roberta Flack~ Why I remember that? I have no idea. Lol…! Anyway I digress! I remember feeling such joy and happiness in my heart as I imagine this wonderful life. Oh…the imagination of a child! Why does life steal it from us a we grow in this world?
Fast-forward to the currently state of my life. My so-called “REALITY”! I’ve mentioned in previous post, that my entrepreneurial spirit has lead me to many failed attempts at creating financial independence in the multilevel network marketing industry. My desire to achieve the dreams that was placed in my heart so many years ago, has been a very painful journey thus far. Most recently since the unexpected passing of my ex-husband, who was my best friend, my life seems to have taken a downward spiral. I have two beautiful adult children, a blessing from 22 years of marriage to my now deceased ex-husband. My daughter who is married to a beautiful man whom I love, has given me a beautiful grandson and is expecting another one on the way. I’m so proud of all she has accomplished in the happy life she has created for herself. My son is finally on the path to healing his life after a very rough transition in accepting his true identity. This new direction came after much pain and turmoil for both of us in the three years since his Dad’s passing. But my greatest challenge by far, is in participating as a co-dependent in a close relationship that has so consumed my life at times it nearly impossible to fathom.
I can’t begin to express how difficult it has been for me to maintain my focus and continue to make progress in my Polaris business. The daily battle steals from my energy and positive outlook, If I were not firmly anchored in Beyond Freedom Evolution (BFE), I would surely drown. Those of you who were on Thursday’s team call I’m sure heard my passionate rant about my determination to success here with Polaris Global. You know the BFE sketches used to illustrate people who have decided to pursue a life-long dream but he/she has those negative voices lurking in the background telling them all the reasons why they will fail, all those negative voices. I experience that in my life. This sinking thinking is a prime example of the herd mentality. Additionally, my family, my friends, my neighbor are all less than supportive because I dare to dream and seek opportunities in pursuit of that dream. It’s all good, as much as all this brings me to tears, I’m standing strong, I’m firmly rooted in BFE. I’m using this time to immerse myself in any personal development material I can get my hands on. I’m also plugging into Guerrilla Marketing, learning all I can about free marketing website and job-boards. My past failure is not a predictor of my future success as those with the herd mentality would suggest. Every failed attempt is what has lead me to Polaris Global Media. What I’ve found in this wonderful community of like-minded people and the teachings of BFE, I’m confident will propel me into manifesting my dreams. As I continue on my life’s journey there is no place I would rather be than with my fellow Polarians as they support and help me live my dreams. You my fellow Polarians understands that, “A Quitter Never Wins And A Winner Never Quits”. This I know for sure, I WILL NEVER, NEVER, NEVER…Quit! And that makes me a WINNER!