September 27th, 2016 by Amy Adams

Gradually and suddenly… everything changes

Posted by Ann-Maree M

It started with a post on Facebook.

The word was communicated out by Rachel Krider, co-founder of Prosperity of Life, for anyone to join her to participate in a two-week cleanse. You know, kick the coffee, the alcohol and the sugar for two weeks, that kind of cleanse. I said yes with no interference…no little voice to contend with.
Rachel has openly shared her own experience about kicking the sugar habit and I appreciated the authenticity of her journey. It was a no brainer for me to participate.

It’s a few weeks on now as I reflect on the experience.
1.Coffee perfect score…’amazing’
2.Sugar abstained … ‘not required’
3.Alcohol succumbed …a combo of fruit and sugar…with a birthday I allowed myself a celebratory glass of wine for the occasion. In the moment, I made the choice to enjoy a chilled wine and savored the experience with friends…’to enjoy with no regret’.blog-1-copy2

I committed to participate in the cleanse challenge without a second thought – ‘I’m in’ I said.
Every now and again I find it’s a good thing to recalibrate, to know I am in control. You may be thinking ‘of course you’re always in control’ – yes that’s true I am and it’s even easier to run on autopilot and to not recognize that machine mind of mine running.

My autopilot had become the ‘gradually and suddenly’ increase in the amount of coffee I’d been consuming each day. Coffee had become a thing with me and I didn’t like it for a minute. Driving demanded a coffee as a companion. What the hell!
I wouldn’t consider taking a cup of tea for a drive…no offense intended to the tea drinkers.

Then with the passing of my Dad, a heavy feeling had taken up residence in my chest and I wanted to feel this feeling without any outside influences. I’m very aware that everything I put into my mouth has an influence on the way I feel and my energy levels. I decided amidst the grief I wanted to be connected directly to that new feeling I’d associated with Dad.

I decided I’m doing this for me and to allow the space for Dad to continue to reside in that special place in my heart. And so he does.

Throughout the time, there’s been things that have only added fuel to my quest. For starters, mid-week week one, I recognized there is this mental fog. It’s like a curtain raise in slow motion, reaching a point where it hovers around the brows. It’s then I realize it exists. Each day the fog curtain raised just a little higher to the point that it lifted right out of the top of my head. I now have that clarity and I love it. Strangely enough until I started the cleanse the mental fog wasn’t obvious to me.

Then there’s the taste buds waking up from a deep sleep to become alert and alive. Food tastes amazing, exciting and every mouthful is meaningful.

One of the distinctions I’ve gained is that I’m prepared to break up the patterns that no longer serve me. Otherwise they take on a life of their own like the coffee thing. Everyday doing the same thing, a coffee at this point, another coffee to accompany that, another while I do this and so it goes.

Tuning into the Mind Power podcast over that time, Shane and Rachel Krider interviewed the most dynamic woman. She spoke about her life and the challenges she overcame from early childhood to be the person she is today. Her name …Ella Cojocaru and I’m super appreciative to be able to listen to other people’s stories, hers, one of tragedy to triumph.

Ella spoke about breaking patterns of behavior. While we’re dependent on air and water for survival it’s not ideal for me to be dependent on doing things and keeping stuff that no longer serves me.

Did I go back to coffee? I love my cup of black coffee at the start of each day and instead of coffee as a habit it now has a purpose. That first cup back tasted different as my taste buds are more alive than ever. I know I can take it or leave it.

That heavy feeling in my chest is not weighty anymore. Instead it’s a like the butterfly emerging from the chrysalis; authentic and perfect. Reflecting on my time with Dad, it pays to get things into perspective each day through appreciating who we have while we have them. Because gradually then suddenly, Dad changed and there was no going back. The moment had passed, never to return however the memories live on as a celebration of his life.

A big thank you to the Prosperity of Life community led by Shane & Rachel Krider and Greg Strom, who boldly stepping forward to lead, and contributing to shaping who I’m becoming.

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