August 12th, 2015 by Amy Adams

Over coming Obstacle 1 – FEAR

Posted by Vanessa M

I’m early on in my BFE journey and  I found myself  wondering why things are not happening as I suspected they would or should. So I use my journal to reflect and ponder this question.

I have come face to face with my first obstacle fear.

But what is fear and why is it so paralyzing? Why does my body respond with a physiological reaction? How does it have such an effect on my emotions? What is my personal experience of fear?

I find myself snapping at the kids, my back hurts, my jaw is clenched tight, I feel a constant irritating tingle in my forehead. This seems more than just the flight or fight response normally associated with fear because it stays with me for days. I’m neither flighting nor fighting. I just have anger bubbling under the surface. I try to conceal it but it spurts through the cracks every time I’m pushed just a little closer to boiling point. I’m angry at myself and I’m angry that I’m angry. I don’t like to feel this way. But what exactly am I fearful of and why does it manifest as anger. I Can’t seem to find joy in my day, I’m eager to move my body, I can’t sit still but when I move I don’t really seem to get anywhere or achieve anything. I know this feeling is counterproductive and not in alignment with creation and this just makes me feel more frustrated.

Finally I do boil over and my anger turns to sadness and tears. My pent up frustrations are finally release. I cry, I’m woeful, where did I go wrong? I feel so off track, so derailed.

I decide it’s time to stop and breath. JUST BREATH. The tension I have  just released from my body has given me the space to see more clearly.

FEAR! HOW DARE YOU! You are nothing but a state of mind. You took a single negative thought and that was all the kindle you required to start a raging fire. The more you started to burn the more power of destruction you had. Well guess what? You have no power over me because it is I who has the power to create you and I also have the power to cease you. It’s a conscious choice to extinguish you and I chose to believe a life of unlimited potential. I can be, do, have anything! Fear is not the enemy. I am my own enemy If I give fear the power to burn inside of me. I chose to use my will power to replace negative thought. I chose gratitude and love, I chose personal development and BFE to fortify my stance in overcoming fear and living the life I love.

I am grateful for this journey.

6 Responses to “Over coming Obstacle 1 – FEAR”

  1. Brianna says:

    WOAH! Vanessa, such a powerful post! Congratulations on your huge decision to choose love and gratitude over fear and anger. I can feel your passion through your words and can clearly see you rising above the small mindedness of the limiting beliefs/thoughts.

    Hat’s off to you Vanessa, fabulous post!

  2. Lise R says:

    Thank you Vanessa for a very brave and inspiring post. Fear is such a crippling emotion, I know it well. What I have found has assisted me greatly with overcoming it has been to focus on lifting my vibration, doing things that make me feel good (visualizing my goals, walking/playing with my puppy, masterminds with my husband, hiking in nature, skiing, working out, yoga, etc.) Find the things that bring you joy and do them. Beyond Freedom Evolution is a terrific companion on this journey. xx

  3. Peter W says:

    Great post Vanessa…if you do nothing you get nothing….if you do something you always come away with something….I decided to always do something as a habit…my first phone call each morning is to a US number, because rarely do they pick up…when I don’t do it…I find reasons not to call…still after 7 years….have some fun with your fears….

  4. Kym K says:

    What an authentic share Vanessa and love how graphically you have shared – I can remember feeling like that on many occasions. Thanks to Personal Development, MEDITATION and Beyond Freedom Evolution I have a little master over fear – I too am a work progress but I learned not to try to get rid of the fear but to master it – things seemed to be more manageable. Keep going you are doing great.

  5. Robert T says:

    Such a powerful post Vanessa, love, gratitude and just the conscious awareness of the emotion is the antidote and way forward in my experience. You have a gifted way of expression in your writing, very powerful and moving.

  6. Karen says:

    Great blog Vanessa and how powerful and enlightening. You are in the driver’s seat and can choose the thoughts in your own mind. So grateful for the teachings of Polaris and Beyond Freedom Evolution. Thanks for sharing.

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